Ok, um....most of this week has been a daze. I did manage to get my car taken care of yesterday. Thanks to Sara, I woke up at 6:30 and drove it over to the dealership and she was kind enough to bring me to school. I did not think my car would be fixed in any realistic time frame, but I was shocked when I checked in at 11:30 and it was done. I got a courtesy van to come get me, and lo and behold it was John from the last time. Our conversation for this ride was about religion and the hypocrisy of those who practice it here. The conversation was waylaid when we went to pick up another customer. I think he has an affinity for Asians because he has had a Chinese wife, now has a Fillipino wife, and was just chatting away with the Fillipino lady we picked up. She was not amuse because she kept ignoring his comments. In any case, I get there and my car is all done, and I get in...and it doesn't start. I tried three times, and nothing. I was not happy. 20 minutes later, the car was working. The fluid they used to flush out my AC system had overflowed onto the internal wires and froze the car. Morons.
That same night I had auditions for Uz. They have to be the longest auditions I have ever had in my life. I got there at 6 and did not leave until 11:45. I got home at 12:30. Of course, I had to teach this morning, but hell no. I called in sick and went right back to bed and woke up at 11. And I am STILL tired as shit. My portion of the auditions took no time, but the directors were spending about 10-20 minutes per person which in one aspect was good, but in another was somewhat unnecessary. Only 19 people showed up, which was somewhat disappointing, but I did manage to find 12 dancers I could use. I originally wanted 10/10 for the chorus, but have reduced it to 7/7 which still work out very well. I am getting more and more jazzed about the show and can't wait. Of course....I still need 2 more male dancers. HELP! The nice thing is that I get to work with a lot of people I have done shows with previously....some of whom I love...and some of whom I just tolerate. Can;t let personal feelings interfere in casting.
And now for the thrust of my blog title. In the process of talking to a friend online, I discovered the enormously horrid, yet insanely stupid, lie of another friend. One who should have known better. Now, part of me is not surprised. I totally knew it would happen, so no surprise; however, I am extremely let down. It made me think about giving people the benefit of the doubt. Is that just another phrase for deluding yourself and delaying the inevitable. The phrase implies that there is some kind of doubt that is probably justifiably correct. In my case, it sure as hell was. I don't know whether to be severely angered and to say something about it, or to just let it go and move on and leave the person by the wayside. At this point, I am totally on the side of the latter. I am so fucking tired of giving people chance after chance to prove me wrong and to do the right thing. It is always about the smallest things and those are always the worst. This one lie totally destroys and devalues anything that was ever said and done in the past. And I am not sure who I feel worse for....me or them? This is my one flaw of optimism: expecting better from people from whom I should not expect much. What a fucking joke this person has become.......
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