Well after a bout of personal crises and a little friendly prodding by the elf, I have resurfaced onto my blog to go full force into the madness and insanity that has lately become my life. The show's rehearsals were going....well...they were going. We finally got to our dress rehersals and last night was our "unofficial" opening/final dress rehearsal/friends and fmaily night. I thought the show went very well, although I was making mistakes I never have in my entire life. Got some nice compliments: You look skinnier! You lost weight! (both gratifying and somewhat displacing) and: I could not take my eyes off of you! You are an amazing dancer! You look so good up there! (again, graitifying, but offputting). Compliments, while healthy, make me so uncomfortable as I am used to denigrating myself left, right and sideways. In any case, I am looking forward to opening night tonight and spending a blissful three weeks with some very nice people...and some not so nice people who have turned out to be wolves in sheep's clothing. I am beginning to feel moronic that I keep placing such rapid trust in new people whom I later discover have the worst of intentions and simply use you to get what they want. The awful part is that I see them doing this to other people and manipulating and lying to them to serve their own selfish needs, and while I want to run screaming "No! Run!" I know it would serve no purpose whatsoever.
I am comforted in knowing that I do have a great circle of friends who give me nothing but their undying love, gratitude, affection, and respect. Even if some of them do drive me up a wall sometimes ;)
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