I don;t know what is wrong with me. I have been so unmotivated to do anything. I am at a real low point in my life right now where i feel like nothing is going right. I feel like no matter what I do, how hard I try, or how patient I am, things are not working out. I have also been feeling so incredibly ill with a huge lack of any kind of symptoms. I have been unable to get up and do anything. I have felt so sick that I could not even do the simplest things as blogging or making dinner. I feel like a shit because I feel so ill and so down that I couldn;t even go see my friend for his birthday. I feel like an absolute ass about it, but I literally could not get up to even pick up the phone when people called. I wish I knew what was wrong and how to fix it. It;s one of those fatalistic things where you start to question everything, doubt anything, and expect nothing. I can;t stand not being in control of my life and myself.

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